“The one who’s had to let go of some of her fire.”
This comment hits home like nobody’s business. You always have a way of hitting the nail on the head, Dr. Neel.
The one big positive that I’ve realized from my C journey is that I now notice and appreciate the little things in life far more. Sitting outside listening to the birds chatter, watching small animals mill about, feeling the warmth of the sun and smelling the fresh grass… all these things bring me great joy now. And I’ve become much more patient—not always in a hurry. I like these parts of the new me. :-)
Yes I think it’s a positive to have more patience and slow down to see more of your surroundings. The funny thing is, I didn’t realize the real me was gone for maybe a year and a half. I thought it was still coming back. I just thought this was side effects of chemo and the real me would come back. No such luck though.
It makes me sad to read about how the chemo is still causing you so many physical hurdles. I often wonder that if I had had a crystal ball back then to see into the future, would I have undergone chemo for a stage 2, no node involvement tumor. I think my answer would have been “no”.
Honestly, if I had it to do over, I wouldn’t take the chemo. Plus here we are getting closer and closer with our human cancer drug Angiex that has virtually no side effects. I should’ve just had surgery and the radiation and skipped the rest of it
Thanks for sharing. The old me is gone. I am learning to get used to the new me. I have no choice. I'm still working. By the end of the day I'm pooped. Im in IT and help others all day. It feels good to give.
Just because I don't have the nasty "C" doesn't mean that I don't feel your pain, agony, and all the feelings that have assaulted you. You are a remarkable woman. Stay strong and know that love comes in small, unexpected places.
“The one who’s had to let go of some of her fire.”
This comment hits home like nobody’s business. You always have a way of hitting the nail on the head, Dr. Neel.
The one big positive that I’ve realized from my C journey is that I now notice and appreciate the little things in life far more. Sitting outside listening to the birds chatter, watching small animals mill about, feeling the warmth of the sun and smelling the fresh grass… all these things bring me great joy now. And I’ve become much more patient—not always in a hurry. I like these parts of the new me. :-)
Yes I think it’s a positive to have more patience and slow down to see more of your surroundings. The funny thing is, I didn’t realize the real me was gone for maybe a year and a half. I thought it was still coming back. I just thought this was side effects of chemo and the real me would come back. No such luck though.
would come back.
It makes me sad to read about how the chemo is still causing you so many physical hurdles. I often wonder that if I had had a crystal ball back then to see into the future, would I have undergone chemo for a stage 2, no node involvement tumor. I think my answer would have been “no”.
Honestly, if I had it to do over, I wouldn’t take the chemo. Plus here we are getting closer and closer with our human cancer drug Angiex that has virtually no side effects. I should’ve just had surgery and the radiation and skipped the rest of it
Thanks for sharing. The old me is gone. I am learning to get used to the new me. I have no choice. I'm still working. By the end of the day I'm pooped. Im in IT and help others all day. It feels good to give.
Just because I don't have the nasty "C" doesn't mean that I don't feel your pain, agony, and all the feelings that have assaulted you. You are a remarkable woman. Stay strong and know that love comes in small, unexpected places.